Surfacing 3. Quest or Alienation? Discovery or Madness? Focus: chaps 16-18. Outline. Quest (Searching/Diving/Surfacing) and Alienation ; Power Struggle among David, Anna and Joe The Narrator’s Alienation ; Her Diving Experience – chap 17: the process , the past and her vision
Quest or Alienation?
Discovery or Madness?
Focus: chaps 16-18
Search—for her father (and also her mother), for the Indian rock painting, and for her selves.
Chap 15 – the searching with the father’s map for the Indian rock fails;
Chap 17 – she goes to the cliff
"It would be right," she says, "for my mother to have left something for me also, a legacy. His was complicated, tangled, but hers would be simple as a hand, it would be final. I was not completed yet; there had to be a gift from each of them" (chap 18: 150).
Quest for the mother’s simple truth for nature p. 151
End of Part II: \'. . . nothing has died, everything is alive, everything is waiting to become alive.\'
Surfacing: --both on the physical and spiritual levels
e.g. End of Part I: Swimming; chaps 17;
2) Diving into the subconscious and bringing the repressed guilt to the surface
e.g. There is "death . . . inside me,“ she layers it "over, a cyst, a tumor, black pearl." (146)
3) Chap 20 "He[Joe] trembles and then I can feel my lost child surfacing within me, forgiving me" (161-62).
-- never take ‘no’ for no.
-- sex separated from love, sexual organs detached from human bodies.
-- goes to the narrator to get even with Anna. (154)
-- “Second hand American was spreading over him”
Mythic vision of nature as a place of truth --
Beginning of this chapter: dead animals as Christ;
“I couldn’t use it [love] because it wasn’t mine.”
“The voice wasn’t mine, it came from someone dressed as me, imitating me”
p. 139 “’she loves you,’ I repeated. . .it was the magic word but it couldn’t work because I had no faith.”